The sound of the alarm goes off, sun begins to pour through the windows and he kisses me good morning. Time to get up and start your busy day! I head downstairs to feed the dogs and start the coffee while tiding up the mess my boy’s left the night before in our kitchen. While doing all of this, I plan my day in my head.
Lately, my days have been hectic and very busy as I have been preparing for our consultation with Tori Spelling and Dean! I have started many projects, and some may say I take on more than I can handle. ( I do this often, and have been called “over ambitious” at times ) You see, I am a perfectionist when it comes to tasks at hand and projects I have set for myself. This is a characteristic trait I have, oh so happily, received from my mother.
As I have grown up, especially these last few years, I have noticed a lot of my mother in me and have reflected on my childhood greatly. Just the other day I was working on my projects while trying to clean, get dinner ready and do laundry and I suddenly realized what my mother had to of gone through. I laughed out loud, “How did she do it?” I respect her so much more today than I ever have, and I respected her before my epiphany! I know I will eventually get it all right, and be able to move throughout my days with ease knowing I was able to please everyone, along with myself, all the while being able to accomplish all tasks set for that day. What a learning process this all is.
You see, I am not only a perfectionist but a big fan of people pleasing. (Another characteristic people tell me I have and need to throw away) I dis-agree with the notion of it being a bad thing, but sometimes find myself being pulled in a thousand different directions; this is something I do to myself honestly. I set too high of standards of myself when it comes to being the perfect friend, sister, fiancée (soon to be WIFE) and my own worst critic. And when I am unable to obtain everyone else’s needs, along with my own, I feel almost like a failure. I know time will fix this, and I will be able to get everything done right down to folding that last sock and placing it in its drawer. But, for now I need to take it one step at a time so I can reach perfection.
