Trying To Reach Perfection

The sound of the alarm goes off, sun begins to pour through the windows and he kisses me good morning. Time to get up and start your busy day! I head downstairs to feed the dogs and start the coffee while tiding up the mess my boy’s left the night before in our kitchen. While doing all of this, I plan my day in my head.

Lately, my days have been hectic and very busy as I have been preparing for our consultation with Tori Spelling and Dean! I have started many projects, and some may say I take on more than I can handle. ( I do this often, and have been called “over ambitious” at times ) You see, I am a perfectionist when it comes to tasks at hand and projects I have set for myself. This is a characteristic trait I have, oh so happily, received from my mother.

As I have grown up, especially these last few years, I have noticed a lot of my mother in me and have reflected on my childhood greatly. Just the other day I was working on my projects while trying to clean, get dinner ready and do laundry and I suddenly realized what my mother had to of gone through. I laughed out loud, “How did she do it?” I respect her so much more today than I ever have, and I respected her before my epiphany! I know I will eventually get it all right, and be able to move throughout my days with ease knowing I was able to please everyone, along with myself, all the while being able to accomplish all tasks set for that day. What a learning process this all is.

You see, I am not only a perfectionist but a big fan of people pleasing. (Another characteristic people tell me I have and need to throw away) I dis-agree with the notion of it being a bad thing, but sometimes find myself being pulled in a thousand different directions; this is something I do to myself honestly. I set too high of standards of myself when it comes to being the perfect friend, sister, fiancée (soon to be WIFE) and my own worst critic. And when I am unable to obtain everyone else’s needs, along with my own, I feel almost like a failure. I know time will fix this, and I will be able to get everything done right down to folding that last sock and placing it in its drawer. But, for now I need to take it one step at a time so I can reach perfection.

Sharing Inspiration.

I have decided to begin my creative journey again by bringing my old blog back to life!

Lately, I have been pulling inspiration from many places and it has brought me home every day wanting to run to the computer and write down all of the fabulous ideas I have! So, what better way to do so than to blog about them?

In this blog, you will find many ideas, inspiration, creative projects and randomly I will post the projects I am currently working on. Along with all of my ideas, I will also be blogging about my daily life and the planning process of our wedding which will take place December 12th of this year by Tori Spelling!

Daily, you may venture with me on this journey of finding myself and releasing my talents.

First, let me introduce you to my little family!

 

The first little guy is, Coach! He is our little stinker and he comes to the nick name of "coachi". He truly believes he is the baby, but be-ware! He also believes he is a great dane! Coach brings us such joy with his up beat personality and you can always find him relaxing on someone's lap!

Then there's us! This man is my best friend, companion, supporter and soon to be husband! We will say, "I Do" on December 12th of this year and are fortunate enough to have our wedding planned by Tori Spelling herself! Yes, you heard me right folks! Tune into Oxygen sometime in February to share in our special day with us! { Look for future posts regarding the wedding, as I have a lot to write and share! }

The last little lady is, Lucy. We call her Lucybear and she is as sweet as they come. She is a push over for sure, and you can find her always smiling! Lucy found her way to our home two winters ago and she brought with her two puppies. When she came to us, she was badly abused and broken down. What else could we do than rescue her?! Now, she is our little princess. She sleeps in our bed, has her own sofa and receives more love than most humans do!

So, this is my little family. They are my pride and joy. Some say I spoil our dogs too much, but to me they are our children. And that man, is my life.

Stay tuned for a glimpse into a few projects I am in the process of working on!